My mind is being blown up... PT 1

So... my mind is being blown up. :)

What do you mean by this you may ask me?

I have had my first week of Bethel and today started week 2. It has been MORE then amazing to see the way that God has provided in amazing amazing ways.

One story from the trip down to California.....

So the boarding crossing at times can be a bit tricky. Because of the nature of this school they used to give people a hard time getting across. As well, we were told if you don't have the money to go to school in full they can be harsh about that and not let people cross. I had this all in the back of mind because I was worried.... :)

So we get to the border crossing and it went SO smoothly. Beyond smoothly.

1) The border cross remember my Dad because of his trips that he had in recent years. He actually in fact can speak Spanish.

2) When I get into the office he begins to explain to me (as he looked at my passport) that I am american citzen. That even though I don't have my passport. That I can apply for a social security and WORK in the states. WOW.... That was such a huge blessing to do know that. There have been tons of rumour and misunderstand of how this whole dual citzenship thing works. But when you have the border guy telling you this. It gave me a real isurance. All this to say... he didn't even LOOK at my finances. Haha. That was something I was a little worried about because I didn't have the complete amount that was in the paper.

Praise the Lord. This was just a huge continuation of God goodness to me. (and us)

hehe.

Hmmm.....Now being at Bethel... Where do I begin....

I feel like I have so much to share with you guys but no idea how to start. So I will start with one story that deeply has changed my life.

*Did you know the God loves you! He really does, everyone. HE LOVES YOU.

And that when we insult ourselves or look down upon ourselves or other we actually insult the work of God. If we are created in his image be it christian or pre-chrisitan.

*That if you don't love people you probably don't love yourself.

* That we as christian are supposed to call out the greatness in peoples lives. Regardless of thier state or they are going to become a convert. But we must really learn to love people regardless of them coming into agreement with our ideas.

* That you are amazing. YOU were created to be amazing. You are and anything less then that is a lie. We have the holy spirit living inside of us and because of that we have LIFE. The devil/creation/God KNOWS that fact about you. (Being amazing) But we are ones who don't know what we are.

*Humility is not thinking of yourself as less. But remembering where greatness comes from. We are thinking more of GOD.

* (Something to Ponder) " You become what you see you are "

" Your not what you think you are

Your not what other people think you are

You become what the most important person in your life thinks you are"

(Now think about that......

Now think about that in relationship to God being most important.... MIND BLOWING)

So I leave you with those mind blowing statements. I hope they speak to you (as I try to write franticly in my notes... I hope that the message crossed over. ) If you have questions or anything you want to ask or say... PLEASE post.

MUCH love to you all. I will post when I get some more time....

Dennnnnise.

I am California Bound.

"Healing is never one -dimensonal. While a miracle may change ones physical health, it also sparks a deep revolution within the human heart. Both reveal the nature of God..." Bill Johnston

I found this quote today and really sense this is what I am going to Bethel for. Ha. So much more...but a small taste.

I sit here again. Way to late past my bed time. With a dozen or more stories running ahead of endless miracles of Gods affirmation. Wow. Haha.

I want to take a lot of time to write it down. But I also know that I need to head to bed. Can I leave you with one story.....?

So I have been applying to find an apartment in Redding. First one I applied for feel through and then another one came through. (That in itself is a cool thing). But all that to say, as I have applied for it I realized I had made a mistake in the letter I sent. I found out a couple of days ago that I had put the wrong zipcode. I began to freak out and worry worry. Began to beat myself up about it too. Silly things really.

As I am trying to look through every nook and crany of trying to discover the letters where abouts. I see a letter slip under my door.... It reads " God Bless you Denise". Inside is a extremely encouraging note from a good friend. It goes on to say that they had been praying and asking the Lord about supporting me. Also about my healing. God told this person that I would be healed but the timing wasn't revealed. (This in itself was encouraging. Because its not "just me" whose getting this affirmation) Inside to is 500 dollar to add to the donation.

WOW.....I then hear that still small voice saying " Its time to get some rest..." haha. ( I sensed that it was in more ways then one.)

The next day I get a email from the LandLord stating that they had not recieved the letter. But would pre-approve me anways and I was able to sign the lease on Wed.

WOW....Ha. I just am blown away that this would happen. To little ole me. I know I am getting a deeper undertanding of that classic tune....

"Jesus loves me this I know!

For the bible tells me so.

Little ones to him belong.

They are weak but he is strong.

YES, Jesus LOVES me. YES, Jesus LOVES me.

Yes, Jesus loves me... the Bible tells me so!"

Denise

Specialist Says......

Well the big day has come my friends. :)

Specialist says.....

Haha, Well I guess the way I can describe it is. It was truly good in the sense of the word. Not horrible but not "perfect".

First awesome thing was that the specialist never suggest that I should not go to school. He was like there is nothing to worry and reassured me about that. He stated that my T4 and T3 levels are going down. But T3 is still high enough that I need to make meds. :) So I am well stocked (6 months) of that. Which is great! He told me that I can take the meds for awhile and I can wait off on the Radioactive Iodine. Sometimes your body will correct itself but as he stated majority of people need to go on it. Then after they are stuck having the one tablet a day.

I want to avoid that as long as possible and believing I won't need those meds..... :)

The downer is that I do need to be going to see a doctor (not sure monthly) but for sure have monthly blood test. Which is A LOT of moolah. 200 plus dollars or more.

So it will be interesting to see how the finances come through. :)

So thanks everyone for praying! I guess the big things in prayer are that things go smoothly between my medical doctors in Canada and in States. Paper work and easier transfers of information. That that part won't cost me an arm and a leg. Also that God will provide for my medical bills.

Also that I will be healed compeltey with levels that stay normal. From what I get about this Thyroid case is that if my levels go to normal and stay normal is how I know I am "healed". Until then I take meds and more meds.....

Hopefully that makes sense. THANKS 4 everything everyone. With your encouragment and faithfullness to prayer and leaving me messages along the way with sincerity and care. Its all been so helpful and I have felt so loved and overjoyed.

I leave in a week and a bit. The 7th of Sept to be exact and then head down. School starts on the 15th of Sept. So keep checking up on here about the awesome new updates and CRAZY amazing miracles stories that God is wanting to pour out.

Peace and Love.
Denise

A lil thing called money

Hey Everyone!
Fun times are being had on my part here. I have recently got my computer laptop fixed. Which is great now, because I have missed it and nice to be able to place your pics/music and such!

So as well, because of that I had 2 hour session of sort of emailing/downloading music/surfing and working out finances....

So I wanted to update you on that.. I have taken the time today to email about 10 or so people or more about donating towards my cause. I have gotten a reponse right away. But that is no prob! Its only been a couple of hours.

The grand total I am looking for 10 800. Which is needed at the border. :) Which makes me smile because that seems like a crazy number to bring about in 2 weeks! But I know that its possible. At this point the amount that I need is around 4000.

So can we just pray that God would provide! :) I know he can. I am pumped to tell you the stories of it. Tonight I also have a time of getting together with the teens I mentored this year. I am pumped for this. Each one has impacted me and I am so thankful for that.

God is GOOD!

The need to know...

I have had many attempts to try and create blogs but most of the time the have fallen through.
I feel like this time will be different. I pray that this Blog will encourage people wherever they are at of God faithfulness and goodness towards us. He has truly taken me on a beautiful journey and I pray that is doesn't stop.

I apologize in advance if I don't have the best grammar or spelling. I hope that the message can be communicated none the less. :)

The story begins a little farther back then June of this year. I want share with you how I went decided to go to Bethel. During my 3rd year at Briercrest God began to stir our School in a way that perhaps it hadn't seen in awhile. He effected me and whole student body. He began to reveal his character and the goodness of seeing all the gifts of the spirit work toward the common goal. He began to reveal to me personal the new ways in which he wanted to speak to me and through me. This was an exciting time and hard time. Because I didn't have much understand but new taht God did not want me to fight him. As well, I saw the fruit and geunine encounters that people where having which changed thier life for ever!

As this continue a teacher at school introduced us to a Podcast that began to give testimonys of healing. Spontaneous right before your eyes like Jesus did healings. Which blew my mind and encouraged me and left me giddy to see it happen. As well began to explain about prophetic evangelism.

Prophetic evangelism is witnessing and reaching out to unbelievers by hearing a specific word from God to address their need for salvation, healing and deliverance. It is different than ordinary evangelism because it doesn't just preach the gospel but seeks to speak into the individual's life with a specific word from the Lord to them about their spiritual condition. It is a demonstration of not only the conviction of the word of God and the Gospel of Jesus Christ but also a display of the power of the Spirit of God to minister specifically to an individual.

Cool! I just looked that up and that is a great summary of it! I would say that sort of what Bethel Church is all about.

As I left Briercrest God began to send me a journey to know more about this. He also was so faithful in healing many wounds known/unknown to me. I wanted to know more and more about the way he spoke. To me and to others! Curiousty and hunger arose in me.

This seeking lead me to look into Bethel Church more. I picked up "When Heaven Invades Earth" - Bill Johnston! Also began to listen to the Podcasts. Now this isn't about a person persay or a church. But just God in them , the Holy Spirit through them and the laid down love for Jesus. That I began to have something stirred with in me when I read or listened to the things that were coming out of Bethel. This sparked my attention and I began to think about what it would be like to attend there school. This was around January of 2008.

Then fast foward to July 2008. I heard of a Glory to Glory conference... Little did I know former students of Bethel Church were putting on a conference in a town 15 mins away from me. Here in Warman, Saskatchewan I was witness MIRACLES! Miracles like I have never seen. The anticpation was high for God almighty to work. I loved it and it again stirred up something in me that I couldn't deny. The questions an yearning to know felt like were being answered. But I watned to know more.

So a little after that I decided that this was the place I wanted to go next. To me Bethel Church was not just an excuse to venture out to California! But to me it was a 2 year yearning to KNOW. To know what happend in my 3rd year. To understand more about miracles, and prophecy and the gifts!

My excitment grew as I ventured out and though of Gods mysteries I would soon understand. He showed me too that it wasn't about this school too. Through this time up until I am writing to you. He has showed me he wants to pour out his spirit on all things. That miracles, sponatneous laughter, words want to be given at all time. He decides how they happen and to whom!

Even writing this now take a lot of courage. I have been hesitant to write what God has shown me. For fear of people leaving or rejecting me. Or not totally accepting me. So I encourage you if you have questions or disagree. Write me!

Now lets go to June 2009. This month changed so much in my life. Throughout this whole time I have never needed to ask for a physical healing in my life! :) But that all changed the morning I discovered that my throat was swollen and buldging. Wierd! I thought to myself and went to get blood tests. I discovered soon there after that I have been diagonosed with Graves Diease.

Graves' Disease is a type of autoimmune disease that causes over-activity of the thyroid gland, causing hyperthyroidism. This over-activity is also sometimes called "toxic diffuse goiter." The thyroid gland helps set the rate of metabolism, which is the rate at which the body uses energy. When the thyroid is too active, it makes more thyroid hormones than the body needs. High levels of thyroid hormones can cause side effects such as weight loss, rapid heart rate and nervousness. This is an uncommon disease that affects 2 percent of all women at some time in their lives. Graves’ Disease also tends to affect women between the ages of 20 and 40, although it occurs in infants, children, and the elderly.

As I found out about this it was recommend by Doctors that I stay back. This was such devasting news to hear. Because of the yearning and just the confirmation I felt from God that this truely was indeed the next place on the journey.

I have wrestled with concept of healing. How it works? And many other emotions. Because this blog is getting way to long I will try and condense. All this to say I came to the point where I said, and sense God is going to heal me! I felt that nudge in my spirit. "It will come" he said to me! I believe that God is going to do it. So I want to step out not the fears of what if. But in the sense that I am stepping out in What I believe he has called me too.

So right now I am awaitng an important appointment. I have my specialist appointment this Friday. This person is the determining factor of how to go from here. I am praying that when I get there that it hormone production will be compeletly leveled. I really want to avoid the next treatment plan which is RadioActive Idoine! Beleivng that God is going to have me normal and keep me there! So we shalll see what happens. How that looks like with everything and being down there and healthcare and such. :)

More miracles just awaiting to happen......

So I leave you with THANKS for reading! Thanks for your prayers and I will update on Friday or so. About how it all went!!!

Much love to you all!

Denise